A customer came in to Tim Horton’s today who looked like Jon Snow but had a Russian accent, and I felt like I was talking to Dimitri Belikov. I think I instantly fell in love with him and now I want to reread the Vampire Academy novels all over again. If only I hadn’t rambled on like an idiot… oh well.
I saw this video on Facebook recently which had a woman trying to break women’s common thought that their body is not beautiful. I must admit, she made a good point, so much so that I believe her and agree. But then I thought harder about it and realized that it’s not just the individual that needs to change, but a whole society. I work at Tim Horton’s and as part of that job I have to wear a uniform which they provide. I am a size 16 pants (to Tim Horton’s anyway) and it took 2.5 days to get them to the store I work at, during which time I could not work and caused a lot of frustration for my supervisor. Now, you could imagine my distress when I actually wanted a size larger because I could not physically bend over in the pants without wanting to puke. But did I say anything? No. Why? Because I am embarrassed. It already took a lot of effort jus to get the size I have, but to ask for another size? that would take even longer, causing more frustration, and resulting in more embarrassment for me because I had been the source of it and have to admit that I am that big. We, the individual, are being unconsciously or unintentionally pressured by society in little ways like this to conform to very limited spectrum of what is acceptable and what is not, both in body and behavior. It is so deeply ingrained in our society that we don’t even realize when it’s being done to us, or worse: when we are doing it to others. We also have to stop saying things like “inner beauty” because that implies that their outer self is not beautiful. Instead we should just say ”you are beautiful” and not distinguish between inside or out. If women are to believe that they are beautiful, no matter what their size, then it is going to take a whole society to do it.
Revenge of the Nerds is a book that came out a few years ago that explained that the nerds are the ones that will rule the world because they went on to university and will get all the good paying jobs. But now the joke is on us because, surprise!, we actually can’t get jobs straight out of university. I feel cheated! What went wrong? What changed? Now an undergraduate degree is the equivalent to a high school degree, and a high school degree is just expected as a part of everyone’s education, like elementary school. Instead jobs and employers are turning to college students because they are the ones with some experience and require less pay to hire. WE ARE NOT GETTING JOBS BECAUSE WE ARE TOO QUALIFIED? What the actual fuck?!? And meanwhile it is university students that are outrageously in debt and need to pay back the $40 000 odd dollars (give or take a few thousand) which we needed to pay for our schooling and the degree that is apparently worthless since it can’t land us a job. The nerds have actually gotten screwed over here! We worked our asses off to get into university, then worked our asses off again in university, and all we have to show for it is our debt. Those stupid people who had cheated off us in high school will end up once more above us in the social order because they were smart enough (or dumb enough) to go to college and will end up hiring our sorry butts when we come crawling to them for some job we don’t even what and for a lot less pay than a university degree deserves. Have we nerds not earned our place in society? Or is the universe just laughing at us in our attempt to be the popular ones for once?